C'est La Vie....Et La Cuisine  

Posted by: Audrey in ,

I've often wondered why life is so unfair...I mean, who doesn't right? Why is it that I never get what my sisters get, why is it that everyone else seems so better off compared to me, why why why....so many questions, until friends and family tell me: C'est La Vie (That's Life). Be thankful with what you have and just move on. Good things will come your way soon; and if all else fails, think about so many other people who don't have what I have right now...

 I guess I'm at that place again where I don't know who I am or what am I here for, etc etc. Even after thinking about it long enough (does thinking until your head hurts count as long enough?), I STILL have no idea what I'm good at...work-wise or even just in life. "Good" to me isn't just about knowing how to do certain things...it's about having that passion, that sparkle that comes to the person's eyes when he/she talks about it, or the way a person just lights up when the subject creeps up. I somehow fail to find that 'thing'...and it's kind of disappointing in a way. I really admire the people who just KNOWS what they want in their lives; that they're meant to be that type of person and just bulldozing ahead with their goals. I don't know...perhaps I've been dozing too much or something. I keep feeling that there's something not quite right with me, but I can't exactly pin point what. Maybe it's a myriad of things...or maybe I'm just not confident with who I am right now. C'est La Vie, no? We make do with what we have? I've always thought I'd do something different with my life...what exactly, I don't know! But there's always this naggy gut feeling that it should be something else...*sigh* 

 I know I have to quit whining and buck up...and yet everytime I psyche myself up to do it, always at the last minute, I chicken out. >.<" Maybe I need to see a therapist or something...right now, I just know it feels shitty to be me. And yet, whenever I go home, to see Scottie's happy face and ecstatic 'screaming' that I'm home is just awesome...LOL! To know that someone (even if it's just a dog) is just happy that you're around...wow. 

 Oh well, I need to stop crying....otherwise people will think I'm crazy. LOL! I shall post more happy memories from now on...which shall be about cooking. LOLL! Yes, just like Kung Fu Panda, I eat when I'm upset or when I'm happy. Food's always a comfort..even though I'm ballooning up like crazy. >.<" Following recipes always is fun to me...the best thing ever would be when what I make actually turns out to be like it should be! (Or at least, ALMOST where it should be is good enough!) This was what I did the past few days when I was self-quarantined after Rachel was confirmed with H1N1 (hey, people have to eat also...even when they're sick! *wink*):

Spicy Honey Chicken (recipe here). Didn't have a proper grill, so I used those BBQ pans that we use in Korean BBQs...haha! Turns out my Mom had a set like that, so I just tried it =) Served it atop a salad with some Honey-Citrus Vinaigrette (recipe here) and also some Lime Cilantro Rice With Pineapple (recipe here). Man, looking back at it, I forgot to plate it all nicely to take a photo! Just remembered the chicken when it was done...*smacks head* Anyways, the chicken was AWESOME with the dry rub...but I think it will taste even better with a proper grill. Anyone up for a barbecue? *grins*



Old-Fashioned BBQ Chicken Legs (recipe here). Yeah, notice the grilling 'frenzy' here...LOL! This time around Mom volunteered her little charcoal 'stove' (the traditional ones that the Chinese use to boil medicine). We recycled our microwave grill stand for the grill atop the 'stove', and with a pair of super long chopsticks and lots of trial, error and loads of smoke (long and hilarious story), I managed to finally grill these bad boys. LOL! The sauce was awesome, and we paired it with the salad from the day before (bought so much previously!) and some canned corn (I forgot to get some from the market...otherwise, it would have been roasted corn on the cob. Yum!)



Dinner on Tuesday...Mom was feeling lazy, so we had burgers. Pineapple Bacon Burgers to be exact...heh! Recipe is here, but I didn't use home made burgers like in the recipe...we just used whatever burgers we had (chicken in our case), grilled those with the bacon and pineapple (on the Korean BBQ pan thingy) and served it with some tomatoes and home made BBQ sauce (the same recipe we used for the BBQ chickens). What can I say...YUM!


Feels kind of good to be talking about food...at least the shitty feelings have subsided. For now. I should cook more often...maybe I should do a Julie Powell and cook through a whole cookbook! 

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